Salutations one and all. It sure has been a while since my last journal posting, hasn't it? I must admit that I've been quite lazy recently. I've put my work on hold seeking some form of inspiration. I believe my muse has deserted me, or, at the very least, taken one hell of a vacation! I've been reading different books, planning my wedding in Novemeber of this year, and trying to organize what goes where in my new house.

I'm scared out of my mind about my wedding. I mean I love him, with every fiber of my being, I love him; and he loves me. It's just I'm terrified that when the time comes (I pray its not anytime soon) to have kids, that I'll be a horrible mother. I mean I love kids but I don't have the patience. He's so great with kids too. I guess I'm just nervous, but its' all stressin' me out.

He's been sort of distant with me lately too, which worries me. I realize he's been busy with work and all but normally he makes time for me; whether it be a few minutes on the phone or a visit to my house. Lately he hasn't done that.

Well, I guess thats all for now guys and gals. If you took the time to read this I'm extremely grateful, you're one of the few. Thank you.